Sick

I am definately not feeling so hot.

 

 

although, as always, i am of course looking hot

Romans 9:13

Just as it is written: “Jacob I loved, but Esau I hated.”

Think about that one.

Me N Mah Peeps

So myself and a few other gentlemen whom i respect deeply have started a joint venture here

I had a dream

More of a nightmare really. Honestly, it’s quite interesting. Aparantly I had figured out a way to go back to school full time and work at fifth third full time. It was terrible, and then right before i woke up, I found out I had an 8 page paper due for a class that I didn’t even realize I had been taking.

Calvanistic

I am a calvinist. Know why? Becuase romans 9 and romans 11 tell me to be. I serve a God that is in control, not one who has no power over humanity. Is your G(g)od in control?

Lately

So a lot has happened to me in a very short period of time. Since the last time I wrote a post, I’ve quit decided to stay in grand rapids, quit school, got a job, and bought a house. But most of that is pointless, the thing i want to talk about is my decision to stay in grand rapids.

I know to most of you, this seems like an insignificant matter, but to me it was one of the biggest decisions i had made in a long time. I would say that it was an even bigger decision than me quitting school or buying a house.

The reason that this was such an important decision is because i know that by staying in grand rapids im accepting a life and a lifestyle that will cause me to fully rely on God for the rest of my life. Our decision to stay wasnt about family or friends, it was about God. I feel that God has led me to crosswinds for a very specific purpose, and im not yet sure what that purpose is. But i had felt for a long time that if i left michigan to take a youth ministry job that would be in a higher paying area, that i would just be running away from the miraculous things that God has in store for me, for my wife, for my church, and for Grand rapids and its surrounding suburbs. I knew that if i stayed here it would mean that i wouldnt be able to do ministry full time, at least for a while, and that my wife and i would have to settle for less than what i dreamed of being able to give her.

But God can give me more. (and no, im not talking about health, wealth, and prosperity) I’m talking about purpose, a reason for living, and ripe field to harvest.